August 29, 2008
4:36pm from JASON: I wanted to let you know a little about where my head space is. I am excited to learn how to use my new body. I occasionally get frustrated with my inability to move how I want. I am excited, but sometimes scared about the next chapter in my life. I know that I have to continue to serve people for me to have purpose and meaning in my life.
As you can imagine, I have become more emotional. I would like to share with you the things I get emotional about.~
Seeing my kids and how well they are doing, but knowing that I haven't been there for two months and that I won't be there for two more months, breaks my heart. Joelle has given so much and had to juggle so many responsibilities and it is frustrating, it makes me sad that I am not there for her like I used to be. I can't wait until I can truly cuddle with her. I cry just about everytime I hear about all the kind things. Such as; the benefit dinner, the donations, the willingness of people to volunteer their time to help our family, hearing your responses, etc. etc. (makes me sound like I cry about everything :-). Everytime I hear life flight come in or I hear of a new quadriplegic that came into the unit, I cry.
Today and yesterday Physical Therapy went great. My blood pressure and dizziness were better. I sat on the edge of the bed and laid to each side and I could get back up on my own, which is quite a feat without ab muscles. I could scoot my butt a few inches, which is a skill I will need to transfer myself from wheelchair to bed, to car, to toilet, etc.
I have had, as I am sure you have heard, muliple tubes, hoses, IVs and cords attached to me. But currently- I have only a catheter and a feeding tube. I am not hooked up to a feeding drip anymore, I am eating on my own. But it has to stay in for at least six weeks before it can be removed. I have been thinking about keeping it permanantly, so when I over eat mexican dinner I can just open the valve and let out the pressure. That way I can eat three bowls of chips, a giant burrito, my kids leftovers and a margarita ;-). Actually, I could use the calories because I have gone from 185 lbs. to 145 lbs. in six weeks. To those who would like to lose weight, I would not suggest this diet plan.
My best friend from chiropractic college spent this entire week with me. It was wonderful to have his company. Last night we had a thai food party with lots of laughter, because Gary is a goof ball. Gary worked on me everyday, and "coincidently" I can feel tingling sentaion down to my belly button, where I used to be completely numb from my nipples down.
I just want to let you know, that I care and I love you too.
Love- Jason
ps. love like there is no tomorrow, because life can change in a second.
Dr. Malik Prihar is keeping operations at Holdahl Family Chiropractic running as normal as possible. Click for more information on Dr. Prihar. Holdahl Family Chiropractic will be resuming its regular hours starting Monday, August 18th. Monday, Wednedsay and Fridays 9am-12pm & 3-6pm and Thursdays 3-6pm.
